I know, right?

Last night was AMAZING. I went on what I guess would be considered a first date. And I loved it. It was probably one of the best first dates I have ever been on. I left feeling good and I feel like he did too. i am not going to get my hopes way up, because I have learned that when you do that, everything just comes crushing down on top of you. His name is Frank and I met him at brunch on Saturday. I was drunk he was drunk and I thought he was cute and blah blah blah we end up exchanging numbers and blah text text text blah blah we are talking online and blah blah we set up the date. He is awfully sweet and he thinks I'm funny and that is always a great start. Awfully cute too. Doesn't hurt. If you checked out my latest picture installments on Facebook and / or MySpace, he is the one in the pictures with me. Second date is set up and bam!

On to other things. Do you ever feel like the people around you are changing and sometimes you don't like what they are becoming? Although they might be happier or a better person, what they are just isn't appealing to you, personally, anymore. It's been happening to me with a few different people lately. I am happy for them but who they are now isn't the type of person I would necessarily like to be friends with. Who knows? I could always get used to the changes, and Lord knows I have changed a bit over the years and some people have remained quite loyal. Namely Christian. He is probably my best friend and he doesn't care what I do or how I do it as long as I am happy. So that, in and of itself, makes me happy. I guess I should be like him in that way in regards to my friends who are changing, but I am not him. I guess I haven't done anything so drastic as to turn him off from me. I am not saying that I do not want to be friends with these people I just view them in a different manner on my friend spectrum. Whereas they used to be way up there, they are now falling. Slowly, but still falling down that ladder. Of course, I still care deeply about them and wish them the best, i just don't see where I fit in with them anymore. I hope this all makes sense, cause I am just typing what I am thinking and who knows if my thought are ever cohesive.

I don't even know anymore. I am happy one minute and then depressed the next. Maybe not depressed, more of a blank feeling. I really need to stop skipping therapy appointments.

I would ask if anyone would want to make out, but right now, I sort of just want to make out with one person in particular. I miss that feeling. Ah, it's good to have it back.