It's been four months.

Yeah, I am not good at blogging, we all know this. But I am baaaaaaaaaaaack. Here we go.


So lately I have been feeling pretty blah. I have good days and bad days but most days I don't really feel anything. On my good days i am really happy and what not but by the end of the day it all seems to wash away and I am left feeling like something is missing. I wouldn't call it full on depression I would just call it temporary / situational depression. I feel like there is a lack of support and love in my life and a surplus of negativity and criticism. It's pretty effed up. i am taking active steps to correct these situations but I feel as though happiness is not achieved over night and that it must be worked on and that is why it is taking so long.

Sorry about getting into all that. I mean I could be a lot worse off. It's just... you know... don't you ever just wanna be able to drop everything, leave and start over somewhere, where no one knows anything about you and your life would just be exponentially better. I think this way too often. But in actuality, life wouldn't get better because of that it would only get better if you (I, rather) just made the situations that are stripping us of joy better.

But these are just my thoughts, my ramblings, nothing too serious. I'm not about to go kill myself or anything, don't worry.